It was the third anniversary of my mom’s death on September 14. I wrote a lot about the week she died in a piece for Modern Loss so I don’t want to repeat myself too much and I’m trying to keep these things shorter (last part of the sentence didn’t help). It’s entirely possible I’ve repeated myself a lot already in these newsletters because I never re-read them or particularly remember what I wrote. That seems like a symptom of trauma, but I also never remember anything I’ve said in an improv show unless someone tells me later. I’ve heard Will Ferrell is the same way on the set of his movies and, in that way, Will Ferrell’s comedy career and mine are very much the same.
" I worked on an entire comedy special about someone’s mom dying and said nothing." That broke my heart. I get what you are saying about living in the world differently now, connecting less. All conversational roads lead back to the fact of this new hole in my heart (which only makes sense), so I keep my mouth closed for much longer periods than it is used to being. Glad you are showing up here. Club members like me appreciate your grief-stricken eloquence. xo
Ok but the Victoria and Avery comment 👀👀👁👁👁👁👀👀👀👀👀🔎🔎🔎🔎🔎🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️ And, also, were we supposed to sing the title of this piece like that Barenaked Ladies song or
“ I’ve been on improv teams like that, but this is slightly sadder.” Absolutely on my way to your apartment to citizen’s arrest you for this. 😂 The way this made me howl. 💔
Also, I look forward to making your SMG meet cute actually about me by telling her about this newsletter. That’s what true friends do!
Very glad I found your newsletter Caitlin. I barely know you but I was thinking of you this week!
" I worked on an entire comedy special about someone’s mom dying and said nothing." That broke my heart. I get what you are saying about living in the world differently now, connecting less. All conversational roads lead back to the fact of this new hole in my heart (which only makes sense), so I keep my mouth closed for much longer periods than it is used to being. Glad you are showing up here. Club members like me appreciate your grief-stricken eloquence. xo
Ok but the Victoria and Avery comment 👀👀👁👁👁👁👀👀👀👀👀🔎🔎🔎🔎🔎🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️🕵️♂️ And, also, were we supposed to sing the title of this piece like that Barenaked Ladies song or
“ I’ve been on improv teams like that, but this is slightly sadder.” Absolutely on my way to your apartment to citizen’s arrest you for this. 😂 The way this made me howl. 💔
Also, I look forward to making your SMG meet cute actually about me by telling her about this newsletter. That’s what true friends do!
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